floydfanatic86 (floydfanatic86) wrote,

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School starting up again

It's that time again, time for the college semester to start up again, on this Monday. I'm kind of split in how I'm feeling about that - I'm excited to see my Hood friends again and to be back in that college atmosphere, but I'm also afraid that I'm not going to have that many people to hang out with. With the friends I'm pushed away too, things seem even more hopeless.

My core group of Hood friends have graduated and it's going to be tough to get on without them. It's surprised me how I took it so well when Monchel and Stacy graduated, but it's never been quite the same since Ony graduated and Camille went back home. Really, those two kept me from falling apart from my drama crap, and once they were gone, things really started to get worse. In addition, I'm scared that when I'm alone that I'll start getting depressed...that's how it's been in the past and it could certainly happen again. At the very least, one of my childhood friends has a friend that goes to Hood, and he might be cool to hang out with and such (doesn't drink though, so boo).

I'm wondering if it might be a good idea to meet with the family counselor because she at least is familiar with my family dynamic, and that might be fairly beneficial to me. My current counselor sort of makes me uncomfortable and is being a tad pushy on me...I'm still up in the air with what I want to do. I don't want to do anything rash, but maybe the family counselor might be able to understand me better and I might be able to explain things easier to her (maybe...I'm bad with words nonetheless). In addition, in about a month I might not have any health insurance coverage, which would make it hard to see a counselor without paying a shitload out of pocket.

Anyways, here's my class list:

Ancient Rome
Internship (not set in stone what that's going to be yet - FMH possibly)
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